Nuseirat refugee camp, Gaza Strip, Palestine – At al-Nuwairi Hill, the closest level in Nuseirat to the al-Rashid coastal street, Ansaf Khadra sits on the bottom together with her household for the second consecutive day, ready to be allowed to return to her residence, or no matter is left of it, in northern Gaza.
Ansaf, a mom of 4, was one in all hundreds of displaced individuals in southern Gaza who instantly headed for al-Rashid on Sunday after the discharge of 4 Israeli captives as a part of the Israel-Hamas ceasefire deal the day earlier than.
The plan was to go to al-Rashid and attempt to get by means of Israel’s Netzarim checkpoint, then, past that, to Gaza’s north.
“I’ve been right here since early morning with my husband and youngsters,” Ansaf informed Al Jazeera as she handed out sandwiches to her kids sitting on the bottom.
“Final night time I ready no matter belongings we may carry and left many issues to make it simpler to stroll,” she added. “We couldn’t even wait a minute. We wish to return to our land within the north instantly.”
The ceasefire deal, which started to be applied on January 19 with the primary trade of Israeli captives and Palestinian prisoners, was supposed to permit for the return of displaced Palestinians from southern Gaza to the north after the second exchange of captives for prisoners, which befell on Saturday.
Nonetheless, Israel forcibly blocked Palestinian civilians from approaching Netzarim on Sunday, firing on the crowds on not less than three separate events, in line with medical sources, and killing not less than two Palestinians, in line with al-Awda Hospital, the place the casualties had been obtained. At the least 9 individuals, together with a toddler, had been wounded.
Israel has insisted that one other feminine captive, Arbel Yehud, ought to have been launched on Saturday earlier than Palestinians had been allowed to return to their properties within the north.
The delay has left Palestinians right here pissed off. Ahmed Abu Dan puffed on the remnants of his cigarette as he sat alongside his household.
“We’ve been by means of a lot throughout this struggle,” the 55-year-old mentioned. “Once they informed us we may return to the north, we had been overjoyed, however Israel is deliberately souring our happiness by making us wait.”
Ahmed isn’t within the technicalities of the delay. His solely concern is returning residence to Gaza Metropolis’s Shujayea neighbourhood, away from the reminiscences of 15 months of struggle and displacement.
“What’s one other day or two?” he quipped with amusing. “We’re staying right here it doesn’t matter what, till they allow us to by means of.”
Ahmed and his household packed up their tent as quickly because the ceasefire started, gathering their important belongings in preparation for the tough journey again north.
The household has been displaced 11 instances for the reason that struggle started, Ahmed mentioned, explaining that his well being and psychological state had deteriorated after enduring so many months residing in tents. The expertise signifies that, if he does make it again to the north, he has vowed by no means to depart once more – even when the ceasefire fails and struggle breaks out once more.
“We had been pressured to flee to supposedly protected areas, solely to be focused there as effectively,” Ahmed mentioned. “I can’t wait to kiss Gaza Metropolis’s soil once more.
“I miss my kin and my residence in Shujayea, even when partially destroyed. I miss my neighbourhood and all the things there.”

What’s left?
Whereas the entire of the Gaza Strip, a coastal enclave only 41 kilometres (25 miles) long, has been bombarded by Israel throughout its struggle, the north has been notably devastated.
Israel’s far-right settler motion has even pushed for the everlasting ethnic cleansing of Palestinians and the institution of unlawful settlements within the area, the house of the enclave’s largest city space earlier than the struggle, Gaza Metropolis.
Huge swathes of northern Gaza now seem uninhabitable, however Ansaf has heard that her residence, whereas severely broken, remains to be standing.
“In line with my neighbours, just one room and a toilet in my home stay intact, however to me, that’s heaven in comparison with a life in displacement,” she mentioned with a broad smile.
“I miss my residence a lot,” Ansaf added. “We had solely lived there for 9 months earlier than the struggle began, and I hadn’t even completed furnishing it.”
Not like Ansaf, Nada Awadallah has no details about the situation of her residence in Gaza’s Metropolis’s Tal al-Hawa neighbourhood. What she does know is that the world round her residence was a closed Israeli army zone, and was laborious to entry.
However that lack of awareness shouldn’t be a affirmation that her residence has been destroyed. And for Nada, that is sufficient to try to return.
“I can’t consider the day of return has lastly come,” the 65-year-old mentioned, tears welling in her eyes. “I’ll endure the exhaustion. I’ve been right here since final night time, sleeping on the road, and I’m prepared to remain till we’re allowed by means of.”
Nada had fled together with her household – 5 kids and a number of other grandchildren – from Tal al-Hawa early within the struggle, finally settling in a tent in southern Gaza’s al-Mawasi. And all of these relations have determined, for now, to remain the place they’re.
“There was a debate amongst us about ready longer earlier than heading again, however I couldn’t wait any longer,” Nada mentioned. “I informed them I’d crawl if I needed to. What issues is that I am going again and verify on my residence.”

Returning to the rubble
Mahmoud Mohsen, a 57-year-old father of seven, visited his daughter’s grave in central Gaza’s Deir el-Balah cemetery earlier than heading in direction of Netzarim.
Mahmoud’s daughter, alongside together with her husband and three kids, had been killed in a bombing in Nuseirat in November 2023.
Initially from Beit Lahiya in northern Gaza, Mahmoud fled southwards to Rafah initially of the struggle. After a number of displacements, he finally settled in Deir el-Balah.
“All I would like now could be to return to the rubble of my residence. Nothing else issues,” Mahmoud mentioned as he gazed in direction of the checkpoint. “I’ll keep right here till I’m allowed by means of.”
“Simply reaching this space has introduced me again to life. I miss Gaza’s air,” Mahmoud mentioned. “Our journey throughout the struggle was one in all hardship after hardship. Sufficient of this hell.”